A friend I Admire the Most

Since months ago I have a new friends, Kak Na. She is 11 years old older than me. And I never met anybody who has such a good personality like her before. I trust my heart that I admire her so much. She likes giving away what she has. And this is not jealousy, because I like her. I want to be closer to her. It is not because I want something from her. It is because I just like her, and she is a good friend.

I know, as a human she couldn't avoid herself from problems. But she manages to hide it. She doesn't sells her stories to others. She's just cool. A very cool person. Don't know how to describe her well. But she is the coolest person I've ever met. May Allah blessed her, and grant her all of her prayers.

Regret

Is there any best way to say good bye? Or perhaps an action? I would sing a nice good bye song to the person who I want to leave.

"Choose your last word this is the last time, 'cause you and I, we were born to die."

If only I could sing it to him that last phrase... Hmm but it's not that easy. I'm still sad to remember about what I've done last night. I should not regret because I want to do it. It's not me who was forced to do it. But it's my own decision that I lead him to do it with me. It such a wrong doing, though it feels good. I shouldn't regret. Definitely.

However, it sometimes makes me wonder why I keep doing things that I will regret of doing it. Why I'm always like that? I should control myself. Indeed I thought that I won't regret, yeah. There's something wrong with me. Hmmm. I'm tired of my own doing -_-

Karaoke Time

Since the school holiday started I fill up my time with chatting in a few room at Paltalk. It's true that I can do other good things but I just want to stay at home and do nothing because this is my only chance to stay online LOL. Such a bad excuse hahaha. And this is my chance to shine, I can sing and let other people listen and comment. I was flattered and happy LOL.

Heh...

Now Listening #5

This is an official audio of the new song from Lana Del Rey, titled Shades of Cool. My first impression on this song is. "Not Bad". But as I listened it repeatedly, I could feel that this song has brought me to the history of my life. The part where I was in love with a bad boy who has so many girlfriends and I am one of them. Despite that I know it, I never felt so down. I was so happy that he likes me ahead of the other girls. That made me so proud and happy.

But, it ended so tragically where he just changed his direction to the other girls. Well, truthfully I don't ever regret to know him. It's just an experience for me as a guidance in future. But this song is very meaningful to me. Don't know why, it's not that I want him back. But it is just a great memories, when I was so young back then.

BTW, this song is great. It is so blues but I wish the other songs in her album would be better than this. If it all blues than I'll rest my case. However, West Coast is better.