How can I explain it? How can I tell that lately I feel so much of the nothingness inside. And lately I dream about my past. The life where once I was a kid. I realize that I'm still me inside that small body. However I just can't change the past. Just like travel in time just to see what happened but can change nothing because I stay in the body with the current consciousness. But yet the past consciousness of me is controlling. Which I made me wish that I can control that small body next time if I ever travel again.
And what will happen if I ever control that body and change things. At least the current me know what is the better decision that I should make because I've seen the outcome. Or can I communicate with the that consciousness? Is it me or just somebody else? I know, nobody can answer this. Unless the One who knows everything. I'm so amazed that He let me to dream and think on these silly questions.
Somehow, as a human, I can't help myself to cry. I wake up every morning and there are always tears. I know things will get better, time by time a mother forgive, a father come back home, and sisters smiles. Those dreams are just dreams. Past is past. But I'm still me. :)
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