Travel to Past

How can I explain it? How can I tell that lately I feel so much of the nothingness inside. And lately I dream about my past. The life where once I was a kid. I realize that I'm still me inside that small body. However I just can't change the past. Just like travel in time just to see what happened but can change nothing because I stay in the body with the current consciousness. But yet the past consciousness of me is controlling. Which I made me wish that I can control that small body next time if I ever travel again.

And what will happen if I ever control that body and change things. At least the current me know what is the better decision that I should make because I've seen the outcome. Or can I communicate with the that consciousness? Is it me or just somebody else? I know, nobody can answer this. Unless the One who knows everything. I'm so amazed that He let me to dream and think on these silly questions.

Somehow, as a human, I can't help myself to cry. I wake up every morning and there are always tears. I know things will get better, time by time a mother forgive, a father come back home, and sisters smiles. Those dreams are just dreams. Past is past. But I'm still me. :)

This One Girl

I know this one girl

Who is as beautiful as Aphrodite

She claimed that she’s a poet

A beautiful poet

That’s her

She’s a jazz singer

Her voice is unique

Never heard anything like hers

She sings only soothing’s one

But she’s gone now

She just stop

Don’t where she is

But her poems,

Her voice is still in my head