A few days ago I dreamt about that guy. In my dream he calls me and says sorry for leaving me without any words. Then I cry. It's so weird that when I look into the mirror my face changes into other person's face. A bit thin, have a nice straight bang covers my forehead, and sweet dimples. Wow that's not me at all. I wear baju kurung nicely. And people treat me so well. They are all lovely.
All those things happened in my dream, which I wanted it so badly to be true. Yea not really. I haven't wish to have a straight bang and some dimples on my face. But yeah.. if it really happens then I'll be happy.
About that guy. It was a very long time ago. I was in love, but he never takes it seriously then left me. Without any goodbye, i waited him for about a year. Then I realize that it was useless. He's so happy with somebody else while I cried every night alone. It was sad though. But I think that's what makes me so strong now.
I don't know why he did that. But if I have a chance to talk to him again, I would say that it's okay to tell me the truth that he doesn't want me anymore and I'll be okay soon. At least I wouldn't want him for most a year. I don't mad at him, but I think I deserved an explanation. I understand if he don't like me because of my personality or even my appearance. He has right to choose.
I felt sorry to him and myself that I couldn't be perfect for him. And now I'm in dilemma. I know a guy but our love seems stuck. That I cannot talk to him because his mother don't like him to talk with me. I can't blame his mother, because she deserve her son more. But I'm confuse either should I move on or stay. I hope I'll make a better decision soon.
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